i wait.

But if the object was not to stay alive but to stay human, what difference did it ultimately make? They could not alter your feelings; for that matter you could not alter them yourself, even if you wanted to. They could lay bare in the utmost detail everything that you had done or said or thought, but the inner heart, whose workings were mysterious even to yourself, remained impregnable.

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homecoming was last weekend, these are the results.also, Frances sucked so bad. I don't know why I didn't post this earlier.if anyone feels like climbing trees with me,gimme a call.cos it's kind of weird when it's just me.!

I'm lo...

I'm loving these metaphysical weekends you've been giving me. House shows and homecomings;Soy chai and brand new compilations,(not as tangible as you might think.) I'm just thankful that Emerson's got nothin' on us kids. and by that I mean, what do I do when I run out of clean clothes?!

echo! s

uhh, hey.this week has been awkward, I've been feeling weird lately.our project for history is to research a historical building in Pasco County.so I'm not really sure what I'm going to do it on yet.andhomecoming is on Saturday, I've never attended an RHS dance.it might be stupid, but at least I'll be in good company.my dress is pretty rad. and exciting! so come on over and we'll dance a little.oh, and there is a male counterpart missing,so if you fit that description,and feel like coming,give me a call.

wow, it ...

wow, it seems like it's been forever. maybe it has, i don't know.I spent my FridaySaturdaySunday with Morgan, as usual, and it was particularly nice.I think I should stop rating my weekends based on how much I do, or where I go, and judge them one who I spend my time with. In that case, my weekend was phenomenal, but you already knew that. <3Anyway, I feel stupid because this is.pointless, I mean.

and the cassette part of my new stereo stopped working today.

mom and I went to the mall today, and she was being a retard.And I told her so.And she walked away from me. I don't have a cell phone.So I walked around for a half hour looking for her, and even used the phone at Old Navy to try her cell. But it was off, lucky me. And I used the payphones to call my dad at home, so he could try calling her.And I sat in the food court with a cup of water, while old people watched me cry, because I was so angry with her.And I walked around some more, and finally found her outside of Gap.And she said "I had to get away, you made me so mad."And I said "you don't get to talk to me."And we have a really great relationship, my mom and I.So if anyone really wants to come hang out with me today, too bad.Cos I am grounded for telling the truth.

I'm wo...

I'm working on an essay about the human condition.And about how it's greater to be a better person within yourself,than to dominate our society's gender roles, or start a counter-revolution.But I don't even know if that's true.This is a ridiculous effort, but it's due in two days, along with more double spaced bullshit.oh, boy, we love summer work.

/I find it rid...

/I find it ridiculous that people, particularly my sister, still cling to falacies I believed to be true as a child, such as the adherence to a phrase or idea or a daily tradition. Or even a cartoon that I used to watch. You'd think it would be outgrown, after said person's seventeenth birthday. But she still likes to listen to Disney songs, as if they're going to make her seven again. She's a decade late with everything, as you can imagine. And it's only ridiculous, because my parents think she's more responsible than I. And that's only ridiculous, because she probably is.

heyyy,...

heyyy, look, I'm back.Camp was interesting and knowledgable.I met new people, tanned my arms, and lost my voice.I assume it's an even trade.I bought new CDs tonight, cos I convinced mom to take me out.Dear Catastrophe WaitressThey're Only Chasing SafetyAbout a Burning FireAll of which I've not heard very much from, so of course I am eager to wrestle CD seals and get to listening. You understand.

I really hone...

I really honestly miss school a lot.(I think I say that too much, as assumed by previous entry. I don't know, you tell me.)Maybe it's just the oppurtunities to meet people, and to not.But I really miss six AM bus rides too, and that's my own fault.I'm tired, and that's ridiculous.The annual High Springs camp adventure begins next Monday morning. See you Saturday, losers.

Leah's p...

Leah's party tonight was cool, and I met some really neat people.
AND PLAYED LASER TAG. I sucked,but boy was it entertaining.


thirteen random things you like:01 kleenex pocket packs02 dollar stores03 buying friends' birthday presents04 90's pop05 best friends06 new CDs07 fabric paint08 being nostalgic09 GUBAS brand salted peanuts // 10 bubble wrap11my sewing machine12 old fashioned alarm clocks13 impromtu sleep.overstwelve movies:01The Breakfast Club 02Amelie03 Requiem for a Dream04 Cinderella (thanks, Disney)05 Romeo and Juliet 06Rainman07I Am Sam (what a coincidence ^)08 10 Things I Hate About You09 saved!10ANCHORMAN (oh,yeah)11Pay it Forward12Gone With the Wind
eleven good bands/artists:01 The Decemberists02The Weakerthans03 The Postal Service04 Iron and Wine05 MC HAMMER06The Smiths07 Jets to Brazil08 Get Up Kids09 Cursive10Saves the Day11Taking Back Sundayten things about you:01I'm 5'402One inch taller than my sister.
03And that upsets her, cos I'm younger.
04 I wear Neutrogena concealer in Classic Ivory.05 And use Selson Blue shampoo, the kind in the blue bottle.06I don't have a bed. 07seriously.08but I make due.
09I clean my room once every few months.10 andit takes me a few days at a time.nine good friends: 01 Aaron02 Annie03 Doug04 idonthaveanyfriennndddsss05 Lindsey06 Missy07 Morgan08 Rachel09Youeight favorite foods/drinks:01 veggie pizza from applebees 02peanut butter and jelly sandwiches03water...04 salsa CON QUESO!
05Capri Sun (okay, so I'm in third grade)06confetti cupcakes!07Special K cereal 08skim milkseven things you wear daily:01 earrings02a bra03a shirt04something work appropriate (a skirt?)05makeup..06 A SMILE!
07 yeah, whateversix things that annoy you:01slow drivers02 my family03 bad pick.up lines04Trivial Pursuit, JR.05 people who talk with retainers in06 running out of toilet paper in a public bathroom
five things you touch everyday:01the snooooze button02 my face03doorknobs04....6336 Rowan Road05our 1996 Dodge Caravan (oh,what)
four shows you watch:01Extreme Makeovers!02Dr. Phil03The Simpsons04comeone now, what would YOU do without cable?!three people you have a crush on:01 wouldn't02 you like03 to know.two things you hate:01 radio commercials02 scratched CDsone thing you love:01eyeelohveeewhyohyou.

this h...

this happens a lot, you'd think.


no complaints.

this h...

this happens a lot, you'd think.


no complaints.

when i was l...

when i was little, I used to say "moccercial" instead of "commercial". how inappropriate for a thursday afternoon.1. Who are you really?2. Are we friends?3. When and how did we meet?4. Do you have a crush on me?5. Would you kiss me?6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.7. Describe me in one word.8. What was your first impression?9. Do you still think that way about me now?10. What reminds you of me?11. If you could give me anything what would it be?12. How well do you know me?13. When's the last time you saw me?14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?ok.

july...

july 2, 2004. morgandougaaron. walmart. trampolines. sumo wrestling, in either.july 3, 2004. morganbrent. obscene jokes. AOL drama. july 4, 2004. fam. barbeque. vegetarian baked beans. thanks, mom.

Our ninth annual ...

Our ninth annual Memorial Day weekend Clearwater Beach Vacation.
A story, of sorts.


Friday was nice, we got to the lovely Spyglass safely, and with minimal arguing and or bloodshed amongst family members. We've been staying there since the second year, the former hotel being the Riviera. At the Riviera, we couldn't use the elevator, cos it would break down, and there were cockroaches in the pool. So, we switched over the the Spyglass, leaving our stair walking days behind.
And let me tell you, this place is classy. I mean, between the theiving maids (seriously) and the less than ample towel supply, I was upset to leave.

And I do mean classy.


Saturday morning was nice, we all woke the late, and went down to the beach by noon. It was really hot, and I think the sun index was nine, or something. SPF thirty five, thank you very much.

Mom wore a two piece, cos she's cute, and she can. And her stomach was burnt really badly, because she forgot to put sunscreen on it at all.

Sunday was the same routine, and we went to Bennigans for dinner. I had my first broccoli cheese soup, and it was delicious. Then, we went back on the island to sleep one more night in the questionably clean sheets.

Monday morning we left around noon, and stopped at Einstiens for some bagels and witty billboards.
oh, yeah.
Oh, and I'm Tom Cruise.

That's what it's all about.
<3<3

im reading thi...

im reading this book, in which it says that people can subconsiously share memories with one another. so, the theory is that deja vu is not a reoccuring thought of your own, but someone else's memory. like...it was planted there by a passing stranger, or perhaps a close friend. and certain sights, sounds, smells, trigger it, and bring it back to life.i just thought that was really wonderful.

well, i guess this changes everything.it's just better left unsaid.or resaid, in my case.things will be different from now on, i promise.starting over is what i live for.